Aaron

it really is happening again.

i dont want this feeling,

didnt i alr live through it last time?

you, and that other person.

it was like that last time too,

wasn't it?

everytime i turn back to do something that i decided not to do last time,

i regret it.

i freaking regret it.

i feel like i try so hard,

so hard till i do stuff that i dont normally do,

so hard that i have to take all the crap,

but i take it willingly.

but,

but do you actually feel that im trying at all?

do you realise that?

if everything happens like it happened last time,

i would rather that, point-of-no-return, not happen.

two of it in fact.

it hurts me.

i feel selfish,

but is it really so?

i think about it all the time, whether its really just my fault.

and everytime, the answer would be unclear,

so gray that i dont know why im actually thinking about it all the time.

but like i said,

what doesnt kill you makes you stronger,

and so i'll continue trying.

until the point where...

i'll know when that is.

:D/D:


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Thursday, June 18, 2009 12:24 AM damn this f-ed up re-ocurring shiet. it really is happening again. i dont want this feeling, didnt i alr live through it last time? you, and that other person. it was like that last time too, wasn't it? everytime i turn back to do something that i decided not to do last time, i regret it. i freaking regret it. i feel like i try so hard, so hard till i do stuff that i dont normally do, so hard that i have to take all the crap, but i take it willingly. but, but do you actually feel that im trying at all? do you realise that? if everything happens like it happened last time, i would rather that, point-of-no-return, not happen. two of it in fact. it hurts me. i feel selfish, but is it really so? i think about it all the time, whether its really just my fault. and everytime, the answer would be unclear, so gray that i dont know why im actually thinking about it all the time. but like i said, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, and so i'll continue trying. until the point where... i'll know when that is. :D/D: