Aaron's

4.

2010-08-17T19:36:00.001+08:00

number 4 happened.

to hell with it.

must watch.

2010-06-19T22:53:00.002+08:00

glorious

2010-06-19T17:36:00.002+08:00

as usual, i leave this place untended for long enough to hope that no one comes to this area.

just to hope that i can have this private area for myself,

and for people who care enough to actually visit this damned place again.

oh well.

i rmb i promised someone to blog about the SUF?

BUT,

that damn event was such a let down i decided not to blog about it.

and then there's the yunnan trip,

anything in between, i cant and cant be bothered to try to remember what actually happened.

like, whats the point?

anyway,

THE yunnan trip.

8 days coexisting with the chill.

and as usual, it was the people who made the trip memorable and worth it, or even worth talking about.

huge relief that there were 6 people from our class? if our group wouldnt have been the group that was. who knows ** and ** might be in our group!? oh god no.

anyway, people that made this trip well worth the money,

1409.

gabriel, yaojuin, brendan, regina, serene.

2009.

keith, joshua, yenyen, vanessa.

3710.

siying, joey, jerald.

other people whom i cant remember their classes sadly.

nicole, valencia, vincent, sandy, sze gee, siyuan.

and obviously everyone else who came for the trip?!

made it so much more interesting in every single way weird or funky.

ANDDDD, of course not the whole trip was exciting?

only some parts of the trip are worth mentioning.

-phototaking with everyone! (please do exclude people who you know i will exclude)

-MAN BRIDGE NIGHTS.

-secretly ambushing keith and joshua. WOOHOOO. LOL. crossbows put to good use.

-dinner times!

-bus rides!

and especially when you're talking about people making the trip worthwhile,

you really cant put everything, or even ANYTHING down into words.

its the times spent with them where you really experience how great it is to have friends like them.

it really is.

and to get to know people you barely talked to before, to get to know people i didnt even realise existed in AJ, to get to know my class people even better, it really was a hell of a good ride.

making great friends along the way, nothing can compare to that.

i dont even think i would want that 950 bucks back now if they gave me a choice to reverse everything.

though i would want to reverse the choice of SOME people in the trip.

but at least those people made our trip INTERESTING. in a weird kinda way.

words cant speak of the thoughts in my mind.

i'm happy that i took that many number of photos that i did man!

to relive the experiences of the times spent in that god forsaken place.

a total of 682 photos. i'm QUITE satisfied.

woohoo!

and when the trip came to an end..

its the start of our nightmares of the mid year common tests.

study study study, yada yada yada.

ugh, depressing stuff, better to shut about it.

SENTOSA TRIP WITH SECONDARY SCHOOL PEOPLE.

at first i was quite reluctant to go for the trip you see..

but i'm well glad that i went in the end.

these kind of things ALWAYS happen somehow.

one big regret of the trip.

suntan was fail. FAILLLL.

stupid sun went away when i wanted to turn. now i'm half burnt.

alvin brought his dogs, but they seemed so fragile to me i didnt really dare to play with them.

shld have brought my dog man, to let that bitch get some sun.

and own alvin's dog in the face. LOL. joking.

it's been long since the last sentosa trip, and this one really made me rmb how sentosa felt like.

hmmm. awkward phrase.

ANYWAY, was fun!

AFTER A WHILE CROCODILE!

TONGKAT TONGKAT

2010-03-14T21:16:00.003+08:00

day well spent.

FUHUA ALUMNI HOMECOMING!
though return to your secondary school day didnt come true,
this is as close as it gets.
4e1!
cheryl, ikhy, alvin, yanjie, kwanboon, sara, melvin.
\m/
first thing ms tan told me was "aaron! why is your hair so badly cut!"
she obviously knows nuts about the current hair trends~

performances were crappy ttm, just focused on talking and laughing at everything else in the hall.
the dancing and singing? gawd. LOL.
everything else was crappy too la.
couldnt stand it anymore and went down for refreshments.
not THAT nice but at least they provided la.
chat, laugh, cards.
sara had to leave early though, for her jazz concert LOL. sad la.
anyway, decided at first to go to jp and dunno do what, but then didnt happen.
HIP HOP JELLY WOOHOO. okay random. totally nice right C and YJ.
and CHERYL! your bag! LOL.
the stupid flakes.

went to alvin's house in the end, AGAIN. LOL.
bambi and mickey were damn hyper! only if sayang could be as quiet as they are.
then she would be loved by so much more ppl.
slacked for so damn long in his house, before we finally decided to go for our decided dinner.
played with his laptop. zomg the minesweeper? LOL ikhy i swear imma win you in minesweeper flags next time.
dinner was complicated and rushed somehow? omg i want more of that indonesian chicken la pls. alvin nice recommendation.
and the stingray was a bitch! stained my WHITE berms with RED sauce.
decided to play mahjong, BUT COULDNT FIND ANYONE TO PLAY WITH!!!
si desmond bu yao jie dian hua.
found jiajun in the end to play though.
ikhy went home after dinner. WHY SO EARLY!? could have had more fun luh.

back at alvin's house.
henhouse!
played orientation games again? HAHAHHA.
TONGKAT!
sha! piu! jia piu!
totally LOL AND HAHAHHA PLS?
esp the 4 ppl mm ji ji HHAHAH.
cant get enough.
jiajun came over and cheryl&yanjie had to leave.
mahjong till 430.
DAMN IT I ZHA HU-ED AGAIN.
bitch lor. always make me lose one.

went home with red stains on pants -.-
damn those ppl who stared.
dental straight when i got home.
AHH it hurts like shit now. like please why does it.
tighten so much for what!!! god.

TOKI TOKI.

seriously.

2010-02-27T18:59:00.003+08:00

lets seeee, what have i been doing in school lately.
tchoukball training is what i'm looking forward to every week, and, end of schools? as usual.
lectures have been oh-so tiring. i have no idea why i always feel tired during lectures. must be the lecturer.
tutorials. LOL. haven't even been doing ANY since start of the year. the only homework i did was the econs essay, dont rmb why i actually did it also.
PE. still dread it.

A levels are this year and i dont feel that it's coming at all la!
i dont even study for small lecture tests and class tests now.
"fail then fail lor."
this should not be the way!
buck up!

other than that,
i really do miss secondary school now.
the lessons were much much more fun for some reason?
i dont recall sleeping in ANY classes, why wasn't i thaat tired last time!
i used to be able to sleep at 10 everyday.
but i'm doing NOTHING at 10 everyday.
i miss my teachers!
ms tan, mr lim, ms chan, even mdm tay!
lessons were fun la.
OMG MRS KUAH -.- RIDICULOUS.
the common breaks, the after school meals.
staying back in class after school for NOTHING and just slacking.

the people especially!?
cheryl, fitri, sara, ikhy, weirong, cherrie, jiaxin, geraldine, alicia, yanjie, desmond, joel, melvin, ann, jiahe, jingwei, ryan, alvin, farrah, hannah, jonathan, natalie.
i miss all of you all la! the stuff that we did, or just the accompaniment.
there should be a day called,
"go back to your secondary school day".
everyone would totally love that day?. oh man.
♥4E1

HELLO CHERYL :D

2010-02-17T21:01:00.001+08:00

♥♥

MUSE. BIG NIGHT OUT.

2010-02-05T23:39:00.004+08:00

FUCKING AWESOME.
MUSE FTW.
THAT RED GUITAR, THAT WHITE PIANO, THE KEYTAR, THE KAOSS PAD.
PWNED.
FREAKING WORTH THE MONEY.

though photography wasnt allowed at all, BUT WHO CARES LOL.
almost every single person brought a camera, DSLRs were included.
dont know how those huge lenses got in :\

and THANK YOU IKHWAN WAHID LOL.
buying the tickets on 17 nov wth.
btw, my parents finally found out that i went for a rock concert LOL.
they were okay with it though.
TEEHEE.

same place, different time.

2009-12-30T01:26:00.002+08:00

LOL RIGHT. we were stuck in the same exact machine, same exact bob, but different times.
DESMOND! wo men zhen you yuan! LOLLL.

YATTA!!

2009-12-24T14:37:00.002+08:00

THIS VID IS ZOMG.

LOL.

nguanhan i bet you like it /raise

BRACE UP!

2009-12-21T00:10:00.004+08:00

its a love/hate relationship.

not much of the love part actually. i cant actually eat anything normal.

bahh.

hopefully the day-where-my-teeth-doesnt-hurt comes.

farewell

2009-12-06T23:54:00.002+08:00

it's gone. forever.

been with me for, about 7 years?

its long, far too long for me not to develop a bond.

i dont think i can sleep without you now.

sleepless nights are to come, so frequently.

why did you cry again?

you knew you had to go away if you did so again! you knew.

you took yourself away from me,

and in return, i had to take everything inside you away from you.

the emptiness in you.

you had to be taken away,

and i was still forced to cut something away from you,

your skin,

a memento to me,

a tool to someone else.

now you've been replaced,

a substitute.

i hope you dont forget me,

cos i wont forget you.

goodbye,

my waterbed.

P.S.

crying = leaking

take away everything = draining the water

cut away = plastic for my parent's bed in case it leaks too

replacement = tilam.

YEEHAA.

revelation

2009-12-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

cool ass video. song, nahhh.

decision

2009-12-02T13:54:00.002+08:00

time really does it eh.

time is love.

it actually makes sense!

oh well.

2 kinds of people.

people you want to stay in contact with who just do not care,

and people you dont want to stay in contact with who just can't leave you alone.

you flunctuate oh so much in between.

TEEHEE.

the ineffability.

2009-11-25T22:45:00.007+08:00

how i wish i was best friends with edward now.

reading minds,

how wonderful right.

even how i met your mother couldnt really cheer me up.

what could?

you probably.

already thought to myself at the start.

"i will not let this happen again this time"

but it still did.

i have no idea why.

the cliche "someone tell me what to do",

ah heck.

i hope its mutual.

i keep staring, and waiting.

i keep thinking whether i should do it or not.

in the end, nothing ever happens.

is it a sign?

a sign to tell me that its only me.

or were you waiting too.

i would love to say "i dont care"

but i would not mean it at all.

its rendering me useless.

i feel useless.

how i.

2009-11-25T16:12:00.001+08:00

cantabile

2009-11-23T19:24:00.003+08:00

wanted to post something but the dumb promised 100th post got in the way,
got rid of it,
and here's my post.
nothing interesting,
just what im thinking.

ever had the feeling where you spent some time together with some one,
and you really want to get to know the person better?
but you just have no idea how to, or whether this feeling would be mutual?
hate that feeling.
but it just happens, all the time.
it's hard for me to say it out, or just to maintain it the way it is.
i dont even know to talk properly now.
everything i say is almost forced.
ugh.
bet anyone who's reading this doesn't have any idea what the hell im blabbering.
oh well,
not important.

holidays are here.
at last.

just went through another AJ camp, the NYAA camp.
got to know some really nice guys :D
George - the guy who was like me, came into camp without knowing anyone else. seriously awesome dude. a little on the quiet side though. :/
Chenghowe - what else can i say LOL. crapped with me all day long.
Guangxue - smartass. too smart to do simple things LOL. okay joking.
Kokchin - someone that seemed sooo familiar. tall. damn tall.
Lijia & Desiree - only got to talk to you two at the end of the second night, not enough time!! cool ppl.
JOEY & BOONTECK - LEGENDARY facils. whole thing would have been different without you two.

THANKS FOR MAKING THIS CAMP SO AWESOME FOR ME.
it was LEGEND wait for it, DARY.
\m/

birthday.

2009-11-23T19:19:00.003+08:00

decided to forget about whatever birthday post.
meaningless anyway? just makes me think about it only.
anyway thanks to everyone who wished me! (cliche)
done.
the birthday post.

by the way,
its the 100th post! and i shall proceed to try to be happy about it.
seriously lor, what is up with everyone and their hundredth post?
ain't it just a normal post, just that the number's nicer.
ah well.
ah heck.
ah hahaha.

pre birthday.

2009-11-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

Pool.
Kdinner.
and,
wait for it....
wait for it...
KBOX.
imagine 4 guys going to kbox!? LOL.
total ownage/pwn.
JUMP SCREAM SHOUT SING.
this is gonna be weird but,
LOVE YOU GUYS MAN.
chaypioh, zhiheng, jared.
thanks for the night.
and the rose?
:D

99th post.
the next one's for my birthday.
ITS GONNA BE, come on say it with me.
LE-GEN-DA-RY.

cant wait for the post birthday activities, hor cheryl? *wink*

its been long, too long.

2009-10-31T23:04:00.002+08:00

OMG AM I BLOGGING? okay i am.
think that "curse" is getting on me again.
the curse that i never sustain my blog, happened loads of times.
this is the longest my blog has every stayed okay! NOT BAD LIAO.

the thing is, PROMOS FREAKING ENDED.
IT ENDED. okay its something damn long ago but im still happy that its over.
results even came back.
like so what even if promos ended. it marks the start of something bad, EVILLL.
CHINESE A LEVELS, PW OP PRESENTATION.
to hell with those two.
okay depressing topic, ended.

back to happy happy stuff.
I GOT MY IPOD, with the mirror-ed screen protector (HA ikhy, mine's cheaper than yours LOL.)
its cool and sleek and better than your ipod. bah.
STUFF has happened.
SEC SCH CLASS GATHERING OWNED.
midnight photobooth, touch spamming, late midnight movie.
KA-ZAAM it owned.

seriously got nothing else to blog about?
got to start planning for cca stuff again, prepare for OP, do draft 3 for i&r, etc.
post 100 is coming!
saving it for something special thats about to come. soon.

tomorrow.

2009-10-08T18:35:00.000+08:00

is the last day of the exams.
i am excited de worx!
:D
so many things after promos to do!
AS IN SO MANY. ZOMG CANT WAIT.

1,2,3,4,1,2,3,4,1,2,3,4.

2009-09-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

i love to count! not.

DAMN.

2009-09-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

flooble's acting like a dumb bitch.

doesnt want to work la? ugh.

lets hope it comes back and stop being so,

anal.

anyway,

I WENT TO SA TODAY.

damn why is it so nice there. jealous like shit la?!

school compound, uniform, canteen. ALMOST everything.

walked around the school a little, think i only walked around about 10% of the compounds man.

ikhy and j.poon were my tour guides, and i forgot to go and see the audi and LTs. aiya who cares la, just make me more jealous only.

wanted to ask ppl to meet up for lunch,

BUT THEN LEH. haiyo. LOL.

ended up with a romantic dinner with ikhy at jp LJS.

and he just made me want to buy THAT so much now.

SOOOOO MUUUCCHHHHH.

i'll get it straight away after promos, not literally that day duh.

BUT I SWEAR IM GONNA GET THEM.

not emo, just thinking.

2009-09-11T12:01:00.001+08:00

I always believed, that there will be times in your life, where this "someone" will come into play.
This person might seem insignificant at first, hated even.
But as you spend time with them, even forced, you might actually find something special inside them.
And when you realise that little something, you just get attracted to the person, and want to become friends.
You want to tell that them that you didnt dare or wanted to in your life,

and that they would listen to every little detail, and would want to hear more.
And its true for the other way, you want that them to tell you everything too, and you won't feel tired just listening.

You share everything, from dreams of the future, goals that can't ever be achieved,

things you want to do,

disappointments that life has thrown at you.
When something awesome happens, "someone" would be the first you think about, and cant wait to tell them about it

You arent' afraid to cry with them when stuff happens,

and won't mind being laughed at when You make a fool out of yourself.
When you're with them, you dont expect endless conversations,

for you are just content with having them by your side.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.

Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile.

Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

got that whole chunk off another blog.

just found that i could really relate to it totally.

but i'm just gonna add another paragraph below.

But as time goes by, and something happens which separates the two,

you try so hard to keep it going.

You try so hard, so hard, but then it hits you.

Are you the only one that's trying?

You begin to get tired, so tired.

You decide to believe in them that they'll keep it going,

but no,

they dont.

Everything begins to fall apart and you're left on your own now.

You begin to think so much,

whether they even care about you,

whether everything that you did was worth it,

whether you should continue to keep it going.

You think that just giving some time to them would solve everything,

but then it just furthers the distance.

In the end, you're just left dangling, by that same person whom you thought could be your soulmate, someone you've put your all into.

bu cuo bu cuo.

2009-09-10T19:01:00.005+08:00

it wont take much of your time, so yea!

listen to it :D

just press play and let it play in the background.

its seriously not bad!

FUHUA alumni okay, dont play play.

come on, go vote for her! wont take much of your time one la.

http://youthbox.webs.com/ybma2009.htm

scroll down to the middle of the page,

vote for Sharon 萧琬龄!

and yea, it was a day where we lived our lives like before and had no restrictions.

2009-09-01T00:13:00.002+08:00

teacher's day, like one of the few few few days in the year where we all just get to forget about all the homework and restrictions, have fun in school and meet up with our sec school mateys.

and hell did i enjoy it man :D

started out with the morning, lets say, 12am morning.

was still awake making cards for sports club teachers luh!

appreciate it hor! not bad alr k.

nice lor.

our class was freaking epic la!

we stuck post its all over mr chew's car! like seriously all over.

windscreen, wipers, roof, windows, hull, tyre, exhaust pipe, rim, bumper, lights and car plate.

WOOO.

and ms ewe's HUGEASS diamond ring!!

love it man, THANKS REGI SERENE AND CAROLLLL.

we shouted across the hall, and shocked the whole crowd!!

:D:D

AJC was fun alr.

met up with weirong and travelled back to fuhua to try to meet the teachers.

335 was traveling at snail speed pls?! are all 335s like that, cheryl complained last time also la.

anyway luckily some of the teachers are still there :D

ms tan, ms junaidah, ms cheong, yeah thats about it.

okay then we WENT TO CU FOR LUNCH!!!

like FINALLY, CU food!!! :D:D

went to jp for movie. "year one"

and please DO NOT watch it if you decided to,

epic phail la. no story line, bad plot, boring, lame, and stupid.

before that was like 3some outing.

walk walk see see talk talk gossip gossip.

long time since we did that man ;D

cheryl got her shoe, i got my starbucks.

met weirong and gang along the way.

met sara and gang along the way too.

enjoyed it loads.

then we decided to go for dinner, at alvin's house.

FOR STEAM BOATT!!

we went to ntuc extra.

and it was the best trip to a supermarket ever, EVER! right ikhy?? ;D

and for those who missed out on the fun, here's the story.

at first cheryl was trying to tease fitri with a small soft toy elephant, the one named dumbo.

then after a while she threw it to me, then i decided to just hide it among the frozen food cos im lazy to put it back.

then ikhy and me said stuff like, freezing it to death and LOL shit stuff.

then he had a BRILLIANT IDEA!!

instead of freezing it to death, we had another idea to "kill" it. *smirks*

we took out the cold ele and walked over to the seafood section,

and there were aquariums with live fish.

and we initiated the idea.

ikhy blocked me,

AND I FREAKING THREW THE DUMBO INTO THE AQUARIUMS!!!

WOOOOOOO.

we ran away immediately! and from far the ele is still like visible!?!

FLOATING DOWN THERE.

ZOMG WE LAUGHED LIKE SHIT, STOMACH ACHE, TEARING, ALMOST ROLLING ON THE FLOOR!?

then we went to tell a few ppl, OMG cant believe we did it!?

we kept looking from afar, then the ele like floating on top forever one!?

wont it like suck up the water and sink.

there were like quite a number of ppl who walk past and stared at it!!

cool shitz la.

then an aunty finally realised and took the ele out LOL.

squeeze the water out there and then la!!

then after a while we saw like a guy reprimanding another worker,

we were thinking like whether they were saying,

"how do you do your job?! how can you let such a thing happen! why weren't you paying attention!!"

and thus the matter ended.

OMG EPIC SHITZ IN THE SUPERMARKET MAN :D:D

then on the way while buying ikhy's dinner,

we were thinking what if,

there was surveillance camera,

someone took a photo and post it on stomp,

the person lost his job cos of this error.

LOL MAN.

and then it was time for dinner, soon.

while THE NICE AND KIND PPL PREPARED THE DINNER,

i was in alvin's room playing tap tap, DUEL MASTERS!?

and then steamboat started.

though it wasnt exactly a feast,

but everyone sitting down together, eating from the same pot (SORRY IKHY)

it was just heart warming. all the crap, food and stuff,

i really enjoyed it.

even the cleaning up! it was fun nonetheless. (LOL CHERYL FITRI BOON DES JH)

tv-ed for a while, then went home.

sat bus home with geral, long time since that happened.

seemed short somehow.

anyway, the day was great. no words could describe it.

old times man, old times.

thank you,

cheryl,

fitri,

ikhy,

boon,

des,

weirong,

jiahe,

geral,

sara,

jingting,

jiaxin,

melvin,

lingyong,

chaoyong,

joel.

LOVE YOU ALL MAN.

no words can describe the position of 4e1 in me,

never could such a class be replaced.

i make sure,

im going to crash each and every one of your schools, be it sooner or later.

i swear i will.

i will.

(p/s: UPLOAD ALL THE PHOTOS!!)

yakayaka

2009-08-29T00:00:00.002+08:00

just realised i had this blog for quite long alr, but my prestigious 100th post still hasnt come yet. somehow.
oh well.

eneewehye,
today's night was FUN.
yea it was.
at first it was just a normal dinner, but the fun part came later.
queenstown, queensway.
went to check whether my bag can be changed or something, dumb hole that appeared during day 3 of buying the bag. but anyway YAY it can be changed.
then we went out of the shopping centre,
then came the vending machine.
WOO DRINK TRICK.
first drink, blocked.
second drink, BLOCKED BY THE DAMNED FIRST DRINK. the 1st drink was standing up?!
third drink, STILL BLOCKED BY THE DAMNED STANDING FIRST DRINK + SECOND DRINK.
4th drink, BLOCKED BY ALL THREE DAMNED DRINKS BEFORE, BUT THE STANDING FIRST DRINK FELL HORIZONTAL!!!
5th drink, LOL THE FIRST TWO CAME OUT.
wth laughed like shit pls!??!
could have gotten 5 drinks for the price of 1 if we were fast enough.
and we formulated a plan for next time. LOLLL.

and i got my rambler! LOL. cool sia.
no its not you nich.
;D

one for the ears.

2009-08-16T20:02:00.003+08:00

i JUST HAD TO PUSH THAT PHOTO DOWN.
so a post is what i thought of.
and so,
this.

although the girl isnt god pretty,
her voice is already enough of a charm.
-cheryl

LOL.
but her voice is REALLY DAMN EFF-ING NICE PLEASE.
:D:D

another vid.
that guy makes nice duets i realise.
hmm.

super nice also please!?
listened to it times and times over.

disappointed

2009-08-11T23:31:00.005+08:00

EPIC PHAIL LA. LOL.

what i did:

-pull eyes nearer(PHAIL)

-make hair smaller

-slim him down

-more defined jawline

-nicer teeth

-smaller nose(PHAIL)

-perfect skin

he looks like michael jackson now -.-

om nom nom nom

2009-08-10T20:46:00.004+08:00

i was bored,
result of my boredom =/= homework.
result of my boredom=

he looks so much nicer now right!!
what i did:

-pulled his ears back

-enlarged his eyes

-sharper nose

-not that sharp a chin

-PERFECT skin

-removed eyebags

-additional glow to face.

THANK ME WEISHENG! LOLLLL.

do you really..

2009-08-08T22:56:00.003+08:00

i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad,
the dreams in which i'm dying, are the best i've ever had.

how many times have you ever felt that what someone said to you is true?
when that person says i'll be there for you,
i dont know, really.

why do people always say stuff just according to what they feel at that period of time?
"we'll remain BFFs forever!"
but how many actually do?
i dont know about others,
but i'm starting to doubt.
maybe it's you i'm talking about, or not?
go figure.

i never, NEVER
say stuff that i don't mean to people,
unless you're really such a hypocrite that i have to hypocriticise you back.
i mean what i have said to you,
every single word.
but i don't know whether it's true for your side.
everytime, every single time,
you bring me on a psychological roller coaster ride.
never was there once where i truly felt "safe".

i treasure you,
but do you?
do onto others what you want others to do onto you.
well, i did.
have you?

i keep wondering.

2009-08-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

forget everything.
i shall just end this once and for all.
okay? i cant care anymore about this now.
sorry, to everyone or anyone that has wasted time cause of this huge hoo-ha.
samantha, carmen, chaypioh, xavier, cheryl, zhiheng, beesuan, sara, nicholas, and -
whoever - is.
im tired of this,
i have tons of other stuff waiting for me to worry about.
too many.

brilliant, just brilliant.

2009-07-26T15:00:00.001+08:00

and yet again, misunderstandings arise.

2009-07-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

to start,

WHO ARE ALL THESE PPL COMING TO MY BLOG.

and to you, carmen.

well, what business is it of yours huh?

saying that im degrading myself just cos of that post?

dont see how it degrades me,

it improves my english, my typing skills and my ability to think fast.

in fact, i THANKED her in that post even.

people who do actually know me well enough,

shld know that i DONT.EVER.SCOLD.ANYONE.

not unless the person pisses me off like shit. and there has only been one.

what an ass she was -.-

and for that to come out of your mouth? or fingers i shld say.

i'm beginning to wonder whether you're in with samantha on this.

stop sitting on the fence, are you on mine or her side?

you decide.

and so what if im from AJC,

and so what if im not trying to be smart?

key word, quoted from you.

TRYING to be smart.

thanks ah?

and stop stereotyping.

people from ajc MUST be smart?

try going around our sch compound and see how many ppl actually pass their subjects.

not a lot i can say.

so,

if you're not on my side,

just keep quiet? unless you wanna get associated with that samantha.

oh yea, last thing,

thanks for the compliment.

yay im "cute".

and for some reason im starting to doubt that the name samantha is even real.

which person in the right mind would go to a blog wanting to say something like what you said,

and tags with your real name?

unless you really hate the person so openly.

well maybe you do.

are you together with carmen?

well IFF you are,

please just get out of my life.

ignore my presence!

since you dont like me so much, just ignore me.

wont that make it so much much better?

rather than doing all these.

and i dont know whether you're that "sam" in nich's blog,

but if you are,

you're just as humji as carmen said,

and just as lame.

since when was scolding vulgarities equivalent to being not humji?

so you're saying that im a humji indirectly too.

and what use are vulgarities for?

and mind you, you dont even know the reason behind why he's stopping his use of vulgarities,

its an actual act of love, for someone else.

dont make me start on another whole post about vulgarities alone,

it isnt worth it.

but if you arent that "sam" at nich's blog,

just ignore the whole chunk that i said about "sam".

its for "sam".

ANYWAY, you get what i mean,

just stop.

you shld'nt have started in the first place.

DONT UNDERSTAND THESE PPL.

hi samantha, you're weird!

2009-07-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

hi,

to you, my first hater.

or rather the first person that told me he/she doesnt like me.

anyway,

THANKS for hating me yea?

you make me feel alive,

you make me feel excited,

you make me feel gooood.

for whatever reason that you dont like me,

i dont care,

whether it's cos i stepped on your feet,

you dont like my face,

i said something insulting,

i stole your pencil,

im too flexible,

i can sing high notes,

i can belly dance,

i didnt look at you,

or WHATEVER it is.

its just what you think and i dont think that anyone else would think so too.

yes my ego is big,

maybe you hate me cos of that?

but at least i dont go around hating ppl just for the sake of hating.

maybe you have a reason why you dont like me?

say it.

i'll read it through a thousand times until i'm in your shoes.

but if i still think that you're unreasonable,

please,

shut your big ass f-ing mouth up?

or in this case,

keep your fingers to yourself,

or i'll show you mine.

come up to me and talk to me straight in the face,

we could have a peaceful and enriching talk,

i could have just changed from your opinions,

for the better,

but NOOOOO,

you had to tag my blog.

hope you dont regret it yea?

bye sammy! :D

YA TAH!!!

2009-07-06T22:29:00.004+08:00

OMG YES!!! FINALLY.

anyway i love this game.

very good time waster.

started out from 0/10000 points, and accumulated slowly bit by bit.

YAY!!! :D:D

ppl with ipod touch/iphone,

pls go download this game! and let me play :D

*hint hint*

booyaka

2009-07-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

it's been so long,

since i...

-studied so much for something.

i actually studied so much for mid years!!

ok fine its alot compared to what i do normally.

study buddy(refer to below post)!! please make sure i do study :D

mugging shall commence,

when it actually does!

-watch a horror film in a cinema.

the last time i did was with cheryl and fitri.

one missed call? LOL.

sucky movie la.

anyway, watched DRAG ME TO HELL.

some stuff i can say,

the movie made me gay(HEY THAT RHYMED),

i'm thought about it all the way home,

OH MAN. horror still doesnt really suit me.

BUT IT WAS DAMN SHUANG.

-went out with cheryl.

DAMN LONG RIGHT?

as in solo outing.

shit we have to go out soon. like soon.

cant even really rmb the last time we did?

sheesh.

-went shopping.

i shall go shopping soon!

whoever i might be going out with!!

cheryl, chaypioh, anyone!?

soon. soon.

okay i shall end that weird posting style,

dont know why i did it in the first place!?

weirdddd.

anyway exam's over! and school starts soon. DAMN.

overview of exam - screwed.

think i can only pass gp and econs.

but how can gp be passed so easily!!!

okay so only econs.

but then everyone like say its okay leh!

okay forget it, its not my time to shine yet.

i need so many stuff!!!

-clothes

-earphones

-bag

-shoe

-time

-money

-automatic homework completer

-to stop thinking so much.

man! so many things.

slowlyyyyyy.

bye. (omg abrupt)

starday. study.

2009-06-25T23:07:00.003+08:00

WELLLLLLL,

today was productive, quite? yeaa.

studied today at BUNGA RAYA. dont know what raya means but bunga means flower...?

its a room in a cc.

study buddy---> chaypioh!

did math,

and more math,

and even more math,

and a whole lot more math.

the top 4 lines remind me of series and sequences. oh no.

wanted to go swim after,

BUTTTTT, something happened and we didnt.

LOL, next time!

talked about loads of stuff.

yeaaaa happy :D

well well,

2009-06-23T14:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday was just purely, fun.

took my mind away from thinking about everything that was undesirable :D

homework, exams, you, stress, school, vp stuff. WOOO.

i admit im lazy,

so im not gonna list out everything that happened yesterday, like what i did last time?

where did i get that urge from last time la.

anyway, in short,

eat, cook, play, press buttons, drink, swave, jump, pull, tug, splash, swim, drip, bathe, wait, eat, home.

anyway pictures are going to be up by xinyun soon! hope so. :D

-------------------

and cheryl told me that i told her MS LAI had an affair with LINGYONG.

zomg.

stop and think, maybe you'll find out something new.

2009-06-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

just a few moments ago,

the time was 11.11pm,

and i remembered that it means that someone is thinking of you.

pictures of some people flashed past my mind,

and then i thought,

would my picture have appeared in your mind?

if you saw the time at 11.11 too?

i've been seeing that "11.11" for a few days consecutively alr.

mean something?

mythhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

damn this f-ed up re-ocurring shiet.

2009-06-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

it really is happening again.

i dont want this feeling,

didnt i alr live through it last time?

you, and that other person.

it was like that last time too,

wasn't it?

everytime i turn back to do something that i decided not to do last time,

i regret it.

i freaking regret it.

i feel like i try so hard,

so hard till i do stuff that i dont normally do,

so hard that i have to take all the crap,

but i take it willingly.

but,

but do you actually feel that im trying at all?

do you realise that?

if everything happens like it happened last time,

i would rather that, point-of-no-return, not happen.

two of it in fact.

it hurts me.

i feel selfish,

but is it really so?

i think about it all the time, whether its really just my fault.

and everytime, the answer would be unclear,

so gray that i dont know why im actually thinking about it all the time.

but like i said,

what doesnt kill you makes you stronger,

and so i'll continue trying.

until the point where...

i'll know when that is.

:D/D:

sent-to-sha. sentosa. sent to kill. wtf?

2009-06-17T22:34:00.002+08:00

sentosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

cant be bothered to elaborate more,

people who went shld know what happened :D

anyway!

4e1 class outing was there also la! D:

but i DID went to find them for a while,

but didnt get to see ppl like cheryl, alicia?

MAN.

never mind,

it was a nice day still,

and im freaking sunburnt.

damn

damn.

---------------------------------------------

well,

it is happening again.

almost totally the same way it did.

but i WILL not make the same huge mistake that i made last time.

i hope it works out,

i want it to work out.

yea.

like how it did.

2009-06-15T20:47:00.002+08:00

i knew it,

i'm gonna have a hard time.

but well,

WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER.

hell it does.

may it happen again, and may it last..

2009-06-15T00:33:00.004+08:00

[EDITED]

another memorable night with MOHICAN :D

steamboat was a total crap.

literally :D

we crapped like how crabs walk sideways.

jokes, unexpected stuff, and eating.

the eating part was the least exciting part man.

as usual it was the company that made it work.

POOOL after that!

hell it was fun.

beginners luck as usual :D

ONE SAD THING!!!

why didnt we take loads of pictures?!? D:D:

we shld right!

next time we shall spam. who cares if we look weird and gay. :D

ohyeah! before that we went shopping, tried to actually,

but we got shou huo okay! :D

next week! shopping again:D

about last two days...

days were spent at JP!!

omg how can la!

friday-

JONATHAN'S SURPRISE.

sing song, eat cake, walk walk, sit at starbucks, take photo.

saturday-

FITRI'S SUPPOSED SURPRISE.

she spoiled it la!!!! -.-

but the rest of the day was great nonetheless.

spent a lot of time playing games and taking photos!

and my forfeit LOL.

anyway,

the below is going to be another emo-and-meaningless chunk of stuff.

who knows you might understand :D

to you,

i dont know whether you feel the same way,

but i hope you do.

i dont want it to happen again, but yet in some way i hope it does.

you're part of my life, at least i hope you would.

i hope

i really really want it,

but it's gonna be a real hard task,

real hard.

i foresee it already. but well,

i'll try.

reflections at bukit chandu. scratch that. reflections at ABCamp.

2009-06-06T19:54:00.006+08:00

was bored today, woke up, posted, slacked.
but actually,
i thought about a whole lot of stuff, from the camp.
read the previous post? read it first.
our group, team,
it was THAT that kept us going on,
when we thought that everything was hell,
when everyone was struggling,
when everything was wrong.
it was everyone in the team,
everyone cheering on each other,
everyone supporting one another,
everyone doing their utmost for whoever needed help.
remember the times where lakshmi and shirlene needed help?
everyone rushed to them.
no one hesistated to help.
ITS THIS KIND OF SPIRIT.
its this kind of spirit where everyone chips in,
to help whoever's in need,
so that at the finishing line, everyone would cross it together.

quoting from one of the instructors, wenhang,

as a group you dare to do things differently. simple thing like wearing a poncho on rainy days, individually who will dare? i ask you to wear back home after school if it rains you willl die also not wear. but as a group, you all enjoyed wearing the pocho tgt on day ex right? you didnt feel weird after you see each other in it tgt..
this is the power of a team
no matter what you do, you feel comfortable tgt.

true right?
so very true.
another thing would be the night ex.
the journey in front of us will be tiring and tough,
but as a team,
it will allow you to endure on and enjoy the process, regardless how tough the journey may be.

through this,
memories have been forged,
experience gained.
but most importantly,
its the friends that we have made.
the brothers that will pull through together,
the comrades that will strive as one.
so,
chaypioh, shaoan, zhiheng, jacq, bingru, zhehan, weekeat, lingyu, jared, shirlene, lakshmi, wanlin, thao.
i thank you.

ABC

2009-06-05T21:57:00.004+08:00

back from 5day4night ABCamp. don't really know whether i loved it or not?
but i'm sure of ONE thing :D
that its MOHICAN that would have made up of everything that was loved in the camp:D
the peeps, the chatting, the singing, the crapping, and the chance to have known you guys.
if it weren't for you guys, i think i might have just hated ABCamp as it was.
it was you guys who pushed me through,
so much that,
i want to relive those times at ABCamp with you all :D
again, and again, and again.
the rushing of time, the eating of sheng shui food, the rushing of bathing time, i really want to go through it again.
though we kept complaining about it, but deep in my mind, i really enjoyed doing every one of those things with you people!
even though i might have just died, it was really cos of you people where i climbed through.
i don't know whether you guys would be able to read this soon, but i hope you peeps will feel the same as i do when im typing this:D
i feel sad typing this la can!

i miss you.
i miss chay pioh,
i miss shao an,
i miss zhiheng,
i miss jacqueline,
i miss weekeat,
i miss lingyu,
i miss zhehan,
i miss bingru,
i miss jared,
i miss shirlene,
i miss lakshmi,
i miss wanlin,
i miss thao.

CHAYPIOH,
my new found brother yea?:D
i dont think that the piece of paper is enough to express what i want to say.
everything that i did with you, i really really, really enjoyed it. totally.
i would never forget,
the constant exchange of jokes with you,
the crapping of everything whilst sitting beside you,
or maybe just your presence? LOL.
i think so.
everything that we did together, there was never one time where i didnt enjoy it. *non mihi solame* :D
remember that epic night?
playing of chinese chess and almost getting caught, it was really crazy, but i enjoyed it.
PT-ing in the middle of the night! crazy ASSES we were man. literally :D
thank you for being there always to help me out, when i felt like giving up.
you would always be there to support me, to give me a hand.
thank you CHAY PIOH,
you're awesome.
my friend,
my brother.

SHAOAN,
it was really a shock la BRUDDER!
to be in the same group as you, i already knew that i would enjoy this camp with you :D
really had SO MUCH DAMN FUN with you during this camp,
from everything that we did, to everything that we said.
from talking crap, to having meals together, and bathing together? LOLLOL.
though the time we spent together in this camp wasn't a lot,
but every moment spent was treasured.
you,
would be there for me,
would do anything with me,
are thanked by me from deep within me.
you're great :D

ZHIHENG,
bang bang? KIT! LOL. still remember me hating you last time la!
but after knowing you, you're forever such fun accompaniment!
all your drama and things you would say,
never fails to make me laugh.
*non mihi solum*
you're awesome the way you are, really :D

JACQ,
buddy woo!! night ex was the time where we really got to have fun together.
singing, crapping, navigating.
you're such a fun person to hang out with!
you didnt really disappear though :D
it would suck if you did.
you're great,
so thanks.

WEEKEAT and LINGYU,
the crazy crazy crazy pair.
totally like twins can!??! :D:D
didnt really get a lot of chances to spend time with ya,
but well, every other time that i spent with you,
there was hell lotta crazy in it!! :D
you would make a great leader, so continue to excel yea!
wee keat,
wee take.
we take back lots of fun :D
lingyu,
ling ni. (chinese)
lingyu: wo ling ni gan dao fei chang de kuai le :D
THANK YOU TWO!!

ZHEHAN,
EHH, how can you challenge the law of gravity!
LOL. you forever have that craziness around you one leh.
continue to stay like that!
its really amiable :D
thanks!!!

BINGRU,
first few days you were so quiet!!
but then, after being KAI QIAO by me and chaypioh,
the end result, WHOAAA.
some crazy person :D
but its good! you change and adapt! LOL.
thanks for your contributions :D

JARED,
another guy that i knew since long long ago :D
when i first saw that you were in my group, i was like
"shit! im gonna get fumbled over by you!"
and HO HO, i didnt :D
cos there was chay pioh to take my place now LOL.
everything was totally crazy with you la.
the night ex was totally SOT.
and you didnt walk straight! so dont keep saying you do.
take care!!

SHIRLENE,
i really didnt get to know you well at all!!
but through the little times that we did spend together,
you're really a very, caring person i can say :D
and dont strain yourself if you cant k!
there'll always be ppl around you to help you out one.

LAKSHMI,
yo~ calm and collected gal.
LOL. you too like bingru!!
first two days you were like quiet, then came SL.
WHOAAA, you totally transformed HAHAH.
what can i say,
you make a great partner and teammate,
continue to strive!!:D:D

WANLIN,
another fuhua mate! :D
really got to know you a lot better after this ABCamp,
knew a lot more about you through this.
you're fun, optimistic, and a hell lotta wanlin.
you're special, what more?
LOL.
GOGOGO.

THAO,
my mate from another state :D
you also, another unique person that cannot be replaced.
go on and strive for more yea!

from the bottom of my heart,
i really thank these few people for making my ABCamp what it is.
it certainly will be one of those memories that i will remember in my heart forever,
and ever :D
i know its weird to say this, but
i really want to relive AB camp again!!
i felt like i didnt treasure some of you guys enough,
and for some, i love you..?
yea i think so :D
SOUNDS WRONG, but think of it in a constructive way thanks.

to the people whom i spent a lot more time together with!
CHAYPIOH, SHAOAN, JARED, ZHIHENG, BINGRU, ZHEHAN,
you guys really made my ABCamp,
one whoop ass one.

really really,
lets try really hard to continue this friendship/brotherhood.

THANK YOU GUYS :D

boooooo

2009-05-26T13:28:00.002+08:00

look at the time of the post!

its 130? about there.

and its a weekday!!

which means im not supposed to be blogging now but in school.

but im not! which means im at home,

SICK.

:DD

and that weirong -.-

i keep getting tricked by him time and time again la!

told me he was going to be sick, and "hope to see you online tmr late morning!"

and when i came online,

HE WAS ONLINE LA! thought his "little bit of luck" actually worked again -.-

and in the end, he was in the comp lab.

sheesh!

i went to let my com SPEAK out that above paragraph.

DAMN FUNNY LA. laughed like an idiot to myself -.-

again!

2009-05-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

why am i procrastinating again??! -.-

im forever doing it la. cant stand it.

theres econs lecture test tmr, chem atomic structure test,

(i just went to check the timetable)

BOTH ARE THE FIRST PERIODS OF THE DAY.

damn!

Butterflies.

2009-05-17T13:37:00.001+08:00

What a gay title right?
That's because... I'M NOT AARON!

Anyway, ♥ for aaron. HAHAHA!

- Written by: who else?

crap, you.

2009-05-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

when i thought that i did it,
who'd have known that it was wrong all the while?
you did,
you kept quiet,
you didn't tell me.

i had my hopes high again,
i thought that i finally could,
you had to let me "enjoy" it for a while,
before crushing everything down.

i try so hard to get it right,
i thought i did,
and so, i thought.

tutorials, training, exco.

1. i owe so much homework! how am i going to complete them at all with my procrastination?

2. i like trainings, but they make me tired as hell and i go home late.

3. i dont know whether i really want an exco position now!

was i the only one who said vp when they asked what position you would like to be in?

come to think of it,

do i really want it?

man!!

crap.

2009-05-13T21:56:00.003+08:00

today was well,

productive i guess,

thanks to weirong and shaoan WOOT.

thanks for spending time to teach me even though you could have been playing with the others, which would have been more fun!

nonetheless, THANKS BROS.

learnt so much, didnt know that i was making so many mistakes. HMM

dynamics tutorial. YAY havent even touch.

(random thought: does anyone even read my blog)

and the calendar thing! havent complete also.

and we have to hand in chinese tmr?! havent touch.

but seriously la, who in 14/09 does chinese hw, okay other than the weirdo couple.

heex (yuck)and i'm jealous, very jealous.

TCHOU TCHOU TCHOU.

2009-05-10T18:41:00.002+08:00

tchoukball competition was just,

a hell lotta shouting, screaming and yelling for me.

but considering only two months of training!

or was it ONE.

THEY DIDNT GET LAST PLACE! :DDD

great job guys!!

tchouk tchouk bo book.

2009-05-07T20:55:00.002+08:00

tchoukball competition tmr for the guy's team!!

GOOD LUCK!

put all that you all learnt into action!

BRING THE OTHER TEAMS TO HELL >:D

break their fingers,

crush their ribs,

smash their faces,

destroy their legs!

UM, no,

dont do that.

anyway, GO AJ SPORTS CLUB!

BALLSSSSS!

tomorrow.

2009-05-04T21:06:00.002+08:00

tomorrow tomorrow!
i ~~love~~ hate you, tomorrow!
you're only a day away..

the day of doom is tomorrow,
the day where i flunk my napfa is tomorrow,
tomorrow is coming.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
or should i say,
NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
more emphasis on hatred for tmr.

how how how how how!

another day closer.

2009-05-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

today,

training at pingyi again.

was still okay at first, trained with the rest.

but when the rest trained with tim and coach rezal,

i really wanted to be with the team and play!

hope the chance comes soon.

anyway, thanks to everyone in aj sports club.

for not treating me differently,

for working so hard,

for being there.

haizz..

2009-05-01T22:40:00.002+08:00

ever had the feeling of total, heart breaking despair?

trust me, you wont even, ever want to feel it.

when it comes to you, you KNOW it.

and even when/if you try to not think about it, everything around you will make you.

and once you start thinking about it, you dont think straight at all.

one.

didnt get into tchoukball team.

just when your hopes get high, it comes crashing down.

man this sucks shit.

i want to play with the other guys!

i got my chance, i didnt make it.

guys and girls who got in this time!

i can only remember the guys; weirong, shaoan, jingkai, mingchien, zihui, xuhao, xian ming, bryan, jason, yang heng.

win this for AJ sports club!

cherish this chance, cherish it. :D

you'll never know, nor want to know how this feels like.

two.

napfa is next week.

5 stations first i guess?

pull ups. damn the pull ups.

i'm gonna fail it,

then take the retest,

and hope that i dont fail again.

and if i do fail, i'll have to come back during june holidays for pe remedial.

its like a cycle.

MGA! thanks for today's pw meeting.

its such a mad world.

nuuuuuuu.

2009-04-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

weeks.
since.
last.
post.

reason? i want ppl to stop visiting my blog, so that i can post stuff without feeling awkward.
NOT.
lazy, yes.
procrastination, hell yea.

loads happened these few days.
talked to "her", finished some homework though left with a lot.
GOT MY PW GROUP. love my group WOO. cool not!(LOL)
NAPFA coming soon, shit.
got new chem teacher, OMG I HATE HER. we have no fate with chem teachers AT ALL la. even joan lim was better than this one. cant believe she's married.
hate horsey even more. cant stand her SUDDEN change of face. oh, i think her botox is wearing off. her cheeks arent that tight and high anymore.
my dog is getting on my nerves barking at nothing. so damn loud la!? so un-feminine.

i have nothing to post about?

oh oh. BOSSABALL TMR! real court! WOOOT. LOL.
t'choukball coach coming down! i got this scared feeling somehow -.-

OH NO. forgot i got the sports carnival thing to do.
damn! LOL.

okay bye.

it WAS your day.

2009-04-10T13:24:00.002+08:00

happy yester-birthday weirong!
three year friend/buddy/brother! :D
only started knowing you during sec 3, when we sat together in chinese class,
with cheryl and farrah forever disturbing us!! LOLL
then came sec 4, when you sat behind me, sara, and ikhy.
and you were beside JIAHE. who forever cant stop crapping HAHA.
thats when we really started to know each other.
remember the dumb dustbin that we hanged there? HAHA, and it stopped being in use after only a while.
ahhhh, so many memories. :DD
anyway, hope that you like my present!
although i hope that you wont get more of what i gave you.
LOLL.

going for sports club night cycling later!~
wooot, excited!

and about the tuition thing. HOWWW LOL.

think think think!

2009-04-06T21:30:00.002+08:00

sudden sudden urge to blog.
so many things going through my mind now.
as in WHOA much.

the thing i think about most is,
me just being too damn paranoid.
i keep feeling that some people are angry/irritated/hating me.
seriously, who likes this damn feeling?
i dont. at all.
it just keeps coming to me.
you, you, and you.
feel guilty anyone? dont.
its my fault in the first place for making you angry/irritated/hateful.
why do i think so much!! damn.

and, im lagging so much in studies i think?
especially math and econs.
econs is -.-, math too.
how am i going to survive this man!
and im going to give tuition to ppl soon? wow.
and every time i'm asked to explain a question,
i get this surge of panic.
nothing comes out of my mind correctly,
nothing i say makes sense,
nothing gets done.
my heart races.
and POOF, everythings gone.

and my very measly body.
fat, weak.
cant do shit during pe, cant do shit during sports.
i get a panic attack everytime before pe.
as in EVERY TIME.
my heart will beat damn fast,
i will feel like going to the toilet.
i tell myself i will be able to do it, better, everytime.
nope. doesnt happen.
i need someone to force me to do something about this.
someone?
urgh.

damn, emo post.
too many things going through my mind i guess.
ciao.

it's gonna happen soon. i guess.

2009-04-04T20:03:00.002+08:00

SOOOOO, why didnt i blog?
lazy.
procrastination.
me.
tchh.

lots of stuff happened in the past few days, loads.
i breathed, and stuff like that :D
had a HUGE fall yesterday.
wanted to kick the string hanging down from the screen,
so kicked it at its original length,
okay kicked it.
then i went to act pro, pulled the string higher.
tried to kick,
other non-kicking leg slipped,
went into the air,
landed on my side.
my hip bone on my left hurts now :D

spent last few days preparing for family day,
tough tough work luh.
and tmr's finally the day!
its THE DAY.
when all our work will see its results.
lets do our best for tmr chiron!! :D

and ppl who actually read this last minute,
do come down and support us!
its 9am - 3pm tmr.
at AJC.

ze connection.

2009-03-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

quite long ago since i posted?
nahh. :D
okay heres what happened.
bet you wont be interested anyway. LOL.

thursday:
resilience workshop at yishun safra!
cant remember who, but someone told me that the only high elements there was rock climbing!? LOL. totally wrong!
so much more stuff there la.
ms zulie!! our nice nice instructor :D
went through the whole thing with us.
first high element was the most tiring one la!
ascending. ZOMFG tiring.
the ascenders can seriously be better designed! to suit our hand shape more, hurts now la.
first one to go up there -.- got owned by jody who went up later than me, and the steeper slope somemore!!
perspire like hell, seeped through my pants la.

second item, canopy walk.
everything other than the gloves and helmet was fun!
walked the so called harder route, dont know whether its true or not. but still fun.
postman walk! LOL.
me and nicholas fell backwards at the same time la!
si3 dou1 bu4 yao4 fang4 kai1 shou3!
we pulled ourselves back up LOL.

third item, rock climbing.
bimb team went up first! LOL.
randomly picked ppl to climb first, then in the end was three of the bimbs! sadded melvyn couldnt climb la.
climbed past the 3 pointer mark, who knows why its called that.
climbed and climbed, dont know where i reached, shouted falling.
there were practically no other rocks there to climb la!
practically impossible to climb to the highest point!
highest wall in SEA leh! dont play play hor.

then went for lunch, which didnt really rock.
played swing in like so long!

then was nitro crossing!
used my shoe to grab the thing over, had a hard time trying to put the shoelace back though -.-
swing swing swing, everyone went across!
short one.

okay damn lazy to continue on with other stuff.
just one more.
abseiling!
jumping off the wall is damn fun luh!
but at the end my pants were pulled back a little, and my shirt was pulled up,
and my damn cute underwear was admired by regina and melvyn. LOLLL.
after everything, went back to the jasmine room and played games! fun :D

dinner at LJS, laughed like hell la! :D

friday:
FOL workshop. Get in The Hip-Hop Groove~~
DAMN FUN LA.
ppl in our class who went, mel, brendy, nich, heng, gab.
american-mexican instructor, Hozae.
thats if i never spell his name wrongly.
damn pro guy, worked with missy elliot, beyonce, britney and loads of other ppl before.
dance was easy to remember, unlike the orientation dance, which has no theme and connection at all, so was freaking hard to learn.
danced danced danced, learnt the whole thing!
sense of accomplishment seh.
then we had these "group pk" thing. LOL.
at first it was only the group that was called that was supposed to dance,
but then after a while, everyone started to practice with the song when the group was dancing.
last part, was called out to dance with 2 other ppl. OMGGG.
LOLL. pk da4 sai4!
think i was the worst in the three, wait, i am. LOL
overall, damn freaking fun. :D

today:
went for math olympiad with weirong, was TOTALLY unprepared for it.
he said he smsed me to meet in front of the polyclinic, but then i didnt receive that sms at all?! my phone like got something wrong la.
his dad drove us there, registered,
sat for the first exam. physics.
KILLER PAPER MAN. TOTALLY.
10 questions, i only knew how to do the first question.
and im not even sure that its correct.
but since they provided lunch for us :D
we stayed back for the math one.
OMG ANOTHER KILLER PAPER.
this time im not even sure of the most confident question i know how to do.
oh man.
finished at 4, met with nat and we three went home together. chatted about school stuff.
blah blah blah.
done,
end of post.
:D

and it starts all over again.

2009-03-24T18:58:00.002+08:00

schools up! and i'm down :|

homework's still incomplete, and most of all,

I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY AGAINNN.

been waking up at like 12-1 everyday during holidays la, if time allowED.

now its back to the same routine again, sian. SIANNN.

second day of school, not like yesterday,

where everyone had SUPER STRONG monday blues man.

class of garfields :D without stripes and meows.

and lasagna.

and orange.

and jon.

and whiskers.

and furballs.

and tails.

and fangs.

and claws.

YAY we're going to OFFICIALLY get our pw questions tmr!

con... emer...

i need to rush homework, but i dont really care! yay me.

and oh no, my other cousin is at home, WHERE DO I SLEEP TONIGHT!!

hope he returns to camp later.

please? LOLL.

and its becoming like sec school again.

three sides, where to go?

or all three would be good.

if i can handle.

and damn pe!

okay maybe only for now.

AND DAMN YOU WEIRONG AND MELVYN!!

:DD

there's no way out

2009-03-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

i'm shit jealous now.

you. it's always you.

i thought i could be the only one,

but turns out there were much much more others.

i'm such a bad friend, i always dont know what to do or say,

and when i do or say something, i end up regretting.

i want to be what i am in front of you,

but i just cant bring myself to.

everytime i try to do more, it always ends up being me making myself feeling urgh.

i regret it, i would rather it remained like it was a few moments before this.

before i saw what i saw.

before i did what i did.

anyway, 2 days till school reopens,

and my homework is still undone.

procrastination is the culprit!

i want to do homework, but i end up doing other stuff,

i shall continue to try to complete my homework,

now.

qing bang bang mang la?

2009-03-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

anyway to add on to the old lady yesterday,
when i was sitting BESIDE her, she did another AWESOME STUNT.
she dug her nose, THEN PULLED OUT HER NOSE HAIR!?
like FORCEFULLY LA. urgh
enough about her man.

anyway, cycling later!
please do not rain thankyou!~

after so long

2009-03-17T22:02:00.003+08:00

finally i'm posting!
just cant find enough time to post man(cough)
holidays man! but i'm going out like EVERYDAY.
only free days from now are sat and sun.
and homework is -.- much.
i want to stay at home for ONE DAY!
just one is enough lor. and i realised that my posts are getting more and more random!
like jump from one subject to another subject la, with no link at all in the middle.

okay, jump to today!
SC in the afternoon, with the HUGEEE SUNNNN.
i got sunburnt! from only a few hours in the sun, like 2? -.-
anyway, today was like slack!
t'choukball for almost the whole period of time! and super little PT, the complete opposite from the girls. :D
and, from next week we're going to do bossa ball!! WOOT.
though its like without the bouncy thing i think?
darn..
anyway it'll still be fun! i bet you 1 mol dollars it will. LOL.
and tmr we're going to ECP for cycling~
far, but i dont care!
fun fun fun! and i shall try to sleep as much as i can today.
and sleep is only sleep when ppl experience REM. rapid eye movement.
learnt that from TV a few minutes ago, dont understand of course.
BBQ after cycling, just wondering who will be setting up the fire and cooking. HMMM.
SC is damn fun la! love it.

AND AFTER SC, went home and rested.
went out for erhu classes, and for those who dont know,
YES I TAKE PRIVATE ERHU CLASSES.
anyway, on the way there on the bus...
i stood in the bus at first, no seats obviously
then came one stop, a lot of ppl alighted,
my legs were tired what, so i went to sit with an old lady.
BAD BAD CHOICE.
i think she has something wrong up there la! seriously!
okay so i was sitting there normally, then i accidentally took a look at her.
there was something hanging out of her mouth. i took a closer look.
she took it out! IT WAS HER HAIRRR. WHITE HAIRR.
SHE TOOK IT OUT AND PULL PULL PULL, LICK LICK LICK, BITE BITE BITE.
OMG DISGUSTING?!
then, she plucked even more from her head!?!?
and licked, and bite and put in her mouth!!!
AHHH.
i immediately looked around for another seat, LUCKY THERE WAS.
then the seat was a few rows behind her, so i took a picture. OH MAN you shld see it.
okay then she went down, and i thought "OH MY, SAVED FROM DISGUST"
then i looked back at her when the bus went off.
OMFG SHE TOOK OFF HER PANTS AND WAS PEE-ING/SHITTING ON THE GRASS PATCH BESIDE THE BUS STOP!?
LIKE OPENLY, AND i saw her V.
AHHHH. TOTALLY WANTED TO PUKE!! DISGUSTING!!!!
urgh, cant stand her, -.-
maybe i shall post the picture of her head next time.

AHHHH. bad bad memory.

okay! bye -.- (abrupt ending i know)

good shoes wont save you this time.

2009-03-12T20:31:00.002+08:00

and yes,

good shoes WONT save me this time from my aching legs!

PT was WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.

frog jumps were, soo "mini" -.-

and i've not posted since the change of my blogskin, which is proudly done by C.

i'm so lucky to have an aunt living so near my school!

dont have to go home so late after ccas and stuff.

and i'll shout TGIF tmr! a new phrase which i learnt like 1 week ago onlyy.

and then it'll be the start of holidays!!

a school term passes by so quickly la.

J2 will be stepping down very soon!

like in T3 please.

what'll happen to the club? i wonder.

the new ex-co, with only J1s and the teachers to run the club on ourselves.

lets hope it turns out fine! :D

rainy day

2009-03-09T22:55:00.001+08:00

Okay hi let's talk about Cheryl.
She's my secondary school friend. Like for 4 years?
My ultra good friend like suddenly in sec 3.
If you have no idea how she looks like, she has two deep dimples.

And well, she is realllll nice. Sometimes blah and you know how girls can be.

SHe is like a harddisk? remembering every pai seh incidents that happened to me, you and everyone la? so becareful yeah.

She crashed aj before but for nothing much. cos of me la. have lectures and blahblahblah and weirong made her legs numb by letting her rot alone at the ahem.. OHANA of aj ;D HAHAHAHA LOLLOLOLOL. Luckily she went on a fri. On fridays, mango madness cost $1.50 only. (other days it's $2.20. Like wth? Rip-off man. Cheryl says it's nothing special :x)

Hahaha! :D hehehe so anyway, it's freaking late now. For jc peoples. Okay i just typo-ed people. Can;t believe i added an S behind the word people...

Yeah march hols is coming and I'M GOING OUT WITH CHERYL WOOHOOO.

Lastly, i miss her! HAHAHA.

Bye ;D

- typed by : Cheryl

2009-03-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

I'm sure I've seen this look before
Done a thousand times and a million more
How many lies did he tell this time?
How many times did he cross the line?
It won't help me but I have to ask Is there something real that's behind the mask?
Something true we don't know about?
A little faith then a much to doubt

it really does apply!

yay to this song.

love it.

throat still NOT okay.

i talk like ah du now.

as for the singing part, i cant even talk properly la!

i tried to hum, it hurts la!

when will i get my voice back, when oh when.

not working.

2009-03-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

my throat, my throat, my throat.

its the worst now out of all the days that it has started to hurt la!

i cant talk normally, everything comes out in a weird sound.

frog sound maybe.

and it even stings when i dont talk, or drink water.

and it hurts even more when i talk, swallow, or eat.

maybe i shld just insert a tube down into my stomach and feed myself through that tube,

so that i dont have to go through the painful process of swallowing.

MAYBEEE.

and everything that i have taken, isnt working well! at all.

strepsils, just numbs my mouth instead of throat. the pain's too much for the strepsils to bear.

yin qiao, some chinese medicine that my dad has at home. doesnt even work la, and its freaking bitter.

xi gua shuang, said to work wonders and all? not on me! just leaves the disgusting taste behind.

what to do!! -.-

its a new day today.

i shall make it productive,

or not.

hide and seek

2009-03-06T23:33:00.004+08:00

are you able to find your conversation? LOL.

damn cool right my laptop. :D

finally?

2009-03-05T21:55:00.002+08:00

YES I FINALLY MANAGED TO LOG IN SUCCESSFULLY.

dont know why the computer doesnt want to acknowledge my username la. urgh.

cca today was, fun!

t'choukball? dont know how its spelled la.

fun la! damn nice to see the ball rebound away!

lets play it again. next time :D

BUTTT, i keep hitting myself by running into the rebounded ball!?

and the ball is damn hard to catch!

its damn hard and therefore produces alot of force.

hits you damn hard! and always bounces off when you want to catch it la.

ok enough about that!

im at my aunt's house again! :D

which means late waking up time!

wooohoooo.

okay i shall go and do some more productive stuff.

like tutorials!

if i can that is.

and i watched too much tv!

dumb xing guang da dao.

okay bye.

early-late

2009-03-03T21:07:00.002+08:00

YAY IM AT MY AUNT'S HOUSE.

i think i will start loving to come here man, so near and convenient.

and theres homecooked food!!

and soup.

i reached "there" at like 630? when i would have reached at 7-8 if i had to go back to bukit batok la.

WOOOO.

ran today,

wanted to die cos of the dumb cough+flu+sore throat that i have.

my breaths are a lot shorter now?

like cant breath normally.

have such a hard time taking in fresh air! as in even normal breathing becomes faster.

URGHHHH.

and i'm freaking weak!

run so slow, pull ups kill me, jumping's not looking very optimistic.

only sit up and sit and reach?

useless stuff then i do well.

efffffffffffffffffffffff.

and we did crunches on the BLUE floor.

STAINED MY PE SHIRT LIKE HELL.

they need to rebuild the track man, its like losing colour.

had such a hard time scrubing the blue off luh!

and theres still some left even.

go and die thankyou.

okay i wanted to do some tutorials, but looking at the time and how tired im feeling now,

shall leave it for tmr morning!

yay i can sleep in later tmr!

WOOOOO.

ciao! :D

pain.

2009-02-28T20:04:00.003+08:00

went out with C and K just now, for? breakfast, walking around, mindless chatting, and most of all,

to catch up with each other :D

started off at lot 1's mac, the place is damn full lor!?

people so despo for mac breakfast meh! -.-

never the less, we found seats, sat, ate, chatted.

walked aimlessly around lot 1 doing nothing but talk,

and we finally walked out of lot 1!

and went to woodlands to collect the package from sam that cheryl needed.

SHE LA, so troublesome, still need to send to another person then collect from that person -.-

then went to causeway, laughed A HELL LOT in kiddy palace.

all the disfigured piglets and stuff. HAHHA. weird lor those plushies!

went to eat at pastamania, still remember that i used to eat at that same place with tohnguan last time, like almost every week?? lol those times.

chatted and chatted,

went home.

and the interesting part came.

YAY I DIDNT BRING MY KEYS.

was stuck outside with no means of entertainment other than my measly phone.

sms-ed my sister to ask whether she's coming back alr,

SHE FREAKING DIDNT REPLY.

urgh.

so i called my mum, and she came back though she was at work.

yay fruitful day?

but no schoolwork done. hmm.

bad thing bad thing.

okay byebye.

you.

2009-02-27T22:47:00.003+08:00

another week of school,to you,
new timetable, lesser breaks,i really thought that it was going the way i wanted it to go.
PE STARTED.but turns out now,
hmm, afternoon pe, i dont like.you're still how i knew you from last time.
445-545, like wth!!theres no change in how you treat me, as a friend.
and its tiring also la!i tried so hard,
im having aches all over after this week.i thought i went far,
shit!! im damn weak la.but,
how to get silver for napfa!! sian sian sian.distance = infinity, displacement? zero. nil. na. zit.
i'm still where i began.
and work is piling up!!you appear to have changed sometimes,
tutorials,i wonder whether its you forcing yourself?
projects,or is that really you changing?
everything else.i want to see.
AHHH.i hope you really do.
and i thought jc life was going to be okay.please?
blah!!!
okay byebye.

time is running out of this line

2009-02-21T14:48:00.002+08:00

second post today.

things that happen when you get bored. hmm.

i realise im using "LOL" way too oftenly!?

like every alternate sentence.

and to quote from yj,

Can i say i will, sometimes miss the people in the same school as me? HAHA cos we dont always meet everyday. Or even if we meet we'll be like hi-bye.

true? yea to me it is

although not hi-bye only la.

i miss school!

partly because im bored and dont really want to do homework now.

listening and singing/humming/mouthing songs are fun.

playing/listening to music is ever lovely.

contradiction?

2009-02-21T12:43:00.003+08:00

have you wondered.

whether we, 16/17 year old people, are considered young, or "old" alr?

in our parents' mind that is.

thought about it before?

when we ask for a little more money from them,

they say ,"you so young, need so much money for what!"

but when we don't do our chores,

they say ,"so old alr still dont know how to fold your own clothes!"

obviously doesnt apply to pampered kids la!

contradictory, yes.

we're forever still kids in our parents' mind,

they say they care, but do they really?

they say they listen, but will they?

they say they're there for you always, but isn't work more important sometimes.

i'm not refering to my parents, at least not for all of the above.

just what i feel now.

but THIS is talking about my parents.

i just got an upgrade of internet, comes with a free wireless router.

only collectable in a few days though.

has to be collected from "bencoolen street",

i have NO IDEA where that place is, at all?

and my dad wants me to collect it myself,

and his reason for not going there himself?

after work there will be a jam at that area.

wow, such a good reason?

what about saturdays? sundays even.

when you go fishing or something,

forgo some time, go and get it?

okay never mind.

i'll find the place myself.

so there proves it,

im "old" enough for everything alr huh?

you're just like HIM,

doing things and not knowing you irritate the hell out of the other guy.

and no, this doesnt have to be known by my dad.

its just how i feel now.

let it last

2009-02-20T22:32:00.006+08:00

came across this photo randomly.
damn weird and all!?
and that little girl on the extreme left is the female lead from ghost whisperer.
OMG LOL.
its caption was "main dancers in the Dance! Workout With Barbie"
weird!
BARBIE!? HAHA.
barbie is gigantic.

my flu got worse.
fever followed it! why lor!?
totally felt like DYING today la.
suddenly feel that there are quite a number of teachers in aj which take discipline very seriously lor.
like the one today.
TOTALLY -.-

i want an mp3 player! shld i get an ipod.
AHHHHH.
okay bye.

die

2009-02-19T19:15:00.002+08:00

someone help me chase after my nose please?
i dont know where it ran off to alr.

freaking hate running noses.
especially the type i have now.
most shld have experienced water going up your nose when you swim right?
that very hated feeling.
i feel it every second now. E-VE-RY SE-COND.
it hurts and i have difficulty swallowing, yes that includes saliva.
please cure by itself!
i hope.

cliques

2009-02-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

i typed a whole post out. and i forgot to press publish post, and i went to restart my com. damn!
lazy to type out again.
shall just shorten it.

they form, naturally?
or by deliberate human action.
why does it form?
haizz.

anyway haizz spelt with "s"s are look weird la.
haiss.
that "ass" word totally stands out.

and yay i got into sports club!
and council people just called to ask me about the interview today that i totally missed.
i feel bad for just skipping the interview, not? hmm.
okay shall just think about the bad points about it and make myself feel better! :D

okay tata. LOL tata!?

haiku

2009-02-16T16:52:00.004+08:00

who knows why it does?
why the weather reflects me.
shine, why will it not?

that few lines took an amazingly long time for me to come up with la!
poets are such amazing people.

first day of lecture, BORING like WOO.
and i hope that that guy doesnt become my lecturer man.
the way he talks and the way he looks, OMG no please.
didnt get into alpha programme! sad? no? yes?
------
to the first "you",
i saw you trying,
i hope it goes on.

to the second "you",
that thin line,
broken it will be i think?
all i have is hope.

whether it will stay on depends on how hard you try to make it stay.
and i will :D

will it finally happen?

2009-02-14T19:33:00.003+08:00

post-orientation-day.

so, AJC's orientation is over. OVERRRR.
first few days of orientation, not that fun.
last 2 days of orientation, DAMN fun.
whats the difference between the two periods of time that make it so different?
the people in our OG, the friends that we make, or made, whichever appropriate.
everything thats fun, wouldnt be fun without them,
everything thats boring, would change just because of them.
yes no? yes.

last day of orientation, first day of AJ's 25th anniversary.
CIP STARTED THE DAY.
what a way to start it off man.
like, woot?
GROUP B SLACKS.
we ate ba chor mee while the other team were sweating their ass off la. YAY.
but in the end we still did work okay?? okay.
back to school, slacked, lunched.
pre-finale.
watched some singapore movie, "my magic"
the movie is DARN slow la?
one scene can drag for so damn long.
and WOOOT I LOVE GORE.
BADDDDDD ending. the whole movie ended with the little boy dreaming? wth?
would have love to exchange with other alliances for their movies. totally.

FINALE.
ihdc was, hmm, soft.
couldnt even make out what they were trying to say!
mass dance.
FUN. one word describes it all.
i could actually remember like 85% of the dance steps suddenly? weee.
and we watched the last episode of the orientation video, ended super abruptly la.
then BOOM, surprise! they acted out the last part of the movie for us.
very new and creative idea!
ORIENTATION SONG.
didnt know how to sing, but it was hell lots of fun. jumping around!
wanted to do human train, but was scolded la.
so thats what that makes AJ's orientations so un-fun.
anyway, love the finale!
took group photo, our 'last' group photo. sounds damn weird and wrong but, who cares?!

stayed back, rest of OG went off first, waited a while for weirong, went to find councillors, found kendrick, asked, approved.
i cant remember why but we ran to the toilet? weird things happened on the way LOL.
he went home, and i started on my trip to macdonalds.
i RAN. i ran like hell.
walked a lot of wrong ways, increased the distance i had to run la.
in the end i reached the same time as the other people did. yay me!
ate, chatted, waited.
and DAMN THE MACDONALD'S CASH PERSON.
dont want to explain what happened thank you.
the three OGLs came, talked, they ate, we left.
FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ;D

and to you, _e___.
please,
think before you speak, the words that you say are freaking hurtful and unneccesary.
and there is no need AT ALL for some stuff to be said.
keep what you think to yourself.
keep your comments to yourself.
you talk too much, you expect people to listen to you.
when others say stuff, you cut in halfway.
cant you just wait for the other person to finish talking first?
your "listen to me!" is extremely irritating.
when others dont feel like talking, do you really have to annoy the person by asking or talking?
are you really that deprived of talking?
please, if you know who you are,
think.
--------------

everything between us has been cut off,
now that theres a chance for us to connect back,
but will it happen?

3

2009-02-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

third day at AJ orietation.

well, yeah it's considered fun la, even after hearing ppl say that AJ has the worst orietation among the JCs?

well maybe the other JC's are damn fun somehow.

like CJ goes dragon boating??!

and the water games in JJ.

and there's apparently going to be water games held tmr in AJ.

hope its some NORMAL water game, not like use water gun and squirt a few drops on other ppl.

no way i will like that.

its either let us stay dry, or make us damn wet pls!

went for sports club orietation today, there were quite a few ppl that i knew?

first, weirong

LOL ELAINE IF YOU EVER READ THIS, i knew weirong despite me saying i did not. it was just to trick you. HAHA. okay dont kill me.

second, elaine

same OG, different class. dance partner? lol.

third, valerie

the person i knew from my MG group. still reminds me of cherrie some how.

fourth, win ee

cant rmb the spelling of his name. anyway, met him outside while waiting with weirong.

we three wanted to be high together one lor!

but sadly NONE OF US THREE GOT INTO THE SAME GROUP FOR THE ORIENTATION.

i always dont get into the same group with ppl i want one lor!

okay nvm.

anyways it was damn fun, can be said as more fun than the JC1 orientation i think.

but the rain spoilt everything!

if it was this fun WITH the rain, it would have been crazily fun WITHOUT the rain!

but well. yeah it was great.

knew new ppl.

like weishun, liyan, ferron, chonghui, lynette, limjie, audrey, and theres one more person whom i cant remember omg!!! please let me remember you soon. i know its a girl though.

and gazillion thanks to all the planning committee and jingyi(i still dont know how your name is spelt) and yangheng.

while walking to the gate of AJ after the orientation right, I GOT TRICKED BY WEIRONG AGAIN LOR!?

why am i so naive-.-

anyway, im at my aunt's house now!

first time im staying here after going to AJ.

its such a short journey to home sweet home!

love the place, but then i think i'll miss home hell lots if i stay here for a long period.

anyway its LATE LATE LATE.

and im going to sleep.

OKAY GOOD NIGHT.

probably will update again if i come here to stay, or if im damn free at home

like during weekends? LOL

okay bye. ;D

ae jay seeee

2009-02-07T13:54:00.002+08:00

okay, end of the week!
end of the very boring matriculation week of aj, start of orientation next week! yay! (hmm..)
anyway, first week at aj was quite an experience, sort of.
~~old~~ very experienced school, affordable food, cant think of any other stuff.
i think i said that line above before right? hm.
was in mg 17!

knew some people in there, nice ppl.
first person i knew,
valerie, nice and fun girl, LOVES bigbang, comes from zhonghua, reminds me of cherrie some how?? knew her first day in the auditorium when she asked me about subject registration. then we suddenly chatted.

second person i knew,
aaron H. LOL another aaron in my mg. cool and nice guy, comes from mayflower. knew him, fourth day i think? when we were both stuck outside the hall with no seats available inside. then started talking. was with him for the last day of the week. we were known as the aaronS.

third person i knew a little better,
viknesh. dont know whether i spelt it correctly? but chatty guy LOL. i mean it in a good way.
talked in the aj square when we were waiting for the time to pass.

as for the other ppl, i could only remember some of your names! jingshi, terrence, fiona, jacqueline, zarkia(i didnt hear your name properly!)
and i didnt get any of their emails! wonder whether i'll be in the same og group as them.

even me and weirong who got into the same subject combi didnt get into the same class la, i was in 14 and he was in 12, and there was another person in 10 who had the same subject combi as us!?! so many ppl choosing that subject combi.

only the last day of the week was funner(is there such a word??) la. played games, and stuff.

things troubling me now, school programmes and cca.
darn and damn. d&d.

i am

2009-02-01T12:29:00.004+08:00

back.
i'm back from malaysia after being there for 6/7 days.
back to my own house! yay? yay!
dont really know whether i want to continue staying in msia or come back to singapore, as in the feeling.
staying in msia gives me no stress at all, nothing to worry about, no deadlines, no time limits, no nothing.
but staying in msia will make me miss out on going ons in singapore, friends, food(!?), everything else.
but since im back, shall just live with it and enjoy? hmm..

enrolled.
i'm posted to anderson jc, sort of guessed it alr.
will get to be with some people from fuhua,
but will not get to be with A LOT of people from fuhua, this part i dont like. a lot.
will have to wake up damn early everyday, no im not complaining.
there are other people who will have to wake up even earlier than me la.
ajc - far, good school, ugly pe shirt.
hmm..

happy(jealous) of you.
i used to be happy for you when you could do it,
but now, i dont know whether im happy for you, or just plain jealous.
you do it so, effortlessly.
i want to be happy for you!
not jealous.
no point guessing who "you" is,
im so not going to say.
even if you guessed it right, im not going to say, unless i feel like saying it to you.

heavy hearted
i feel as if i need to do something now, but i just cant think of what that "something" is.
i keep getting this feeling, all the time?
i dont like it, i dont like it at all.
it makes me feel useless and weak.
that 'something' that i have to do,
it seems as though i'll be unable to face up to someone if i dont do it,
it makes me feel so incomplete,
it makes me feel like breaking down.
why? why not.

relieved.
even though there are all of those things on top,
i feel super relieved.
at least, i know that its me, its just me that im going through.
dont think anyone understands that above sentence,
ite enough as long as i do.
at least im still human.

the end.

once upon a time..

2009-01-25T11:41:00.005+08:00

remember the math trail like, THREE or FOUR years?
boon found these photos! dont know from where though.
FUNNYYYYY.

the blur guy behind is YI HERNG. so much difference from now right!!
the guy with the pout-y lip is, YULUN. still so act cute.
lastly, the guy who seems to be falling down/standing up, is JIAHEE.
everyone changed so much la!

second pic.
theres, dianyong, yeele, and the lady in the middle who i cant seem to figure out who she is. farrah??
and to the left is....
i dont know who that fat ass is la!
the butt so big somemore.
and that super ugly red bag!!
who could stand standing next to him man.

who cares

2009-01-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

anyway, i want to say something,
this is MYYYYY blog.
i say what i want,
and to me, this blog is served as a place to keep my memories,
lest i forget them.

and no, no one complained about my blog, its just me feeling that people will say
"aaron's blog is so boring!"
"why the heck is aaron posting that la!? who cares about that pls."

I take control of my blog thankyou.

see ann! why?

2009-01-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

went back to fuhua for cny today,
met for breakfastat teh tarik first, cant remember the last time i used to eat there alr la.
came early, sat down, played psp, waited.
jiahe came, talked a little, totally dressed like he's going to work.
weirong followed soon after, and he said he reached at 830!? thats freaking early considering the time we shld be meeting is 915.
sat there, waited for people to come.
cheryl didnt come in the end, jingting was still at home at 915, sara was at her house busstop at 915, boon was late.
yada yada, ppl came, ate.
in the midst of eating, THERE WAS THIS MIDDLE AGED MAN WHO WALKED PASS US.
he wore the same exact shirt as jiahe was wearing.
TOTALLY LOL. even the 3 stripes at the buttons were there.
jiahe! you're old alr!
anyway, noticed the sign board of the prata stall.
plain prata is $0.70 egg prata is $1.30
AN EGG COSTS 60 CENTS!?
thats only the beginning lor, dont mention the cheese prata which costed $2!?
and butter prata which costs $1.20, and like weirong said,
we can just go to mac and get a packet of butter and add ourselves la!? its free somemore.
okay then left for school.
boon brought 8 oranges, which might have been those rejected from sheng siong/ ntuc, cant remember where he works.

OH OH, and boon told me about his bad experience last year with oranges.
he brought 2 oranges to exchange with teachers, hoping that the teachers would give him 2 oranges in exchange for his 2 that he will give.
WHO KNOWS, at the first teacher he wanted to exchange with, (NOT mentioning who, just in case) the teacher took the 2 oranges because he/she didnt have any to give back to boon!
OHHHH, plan failed.

watched the cny performance,
crimlora performed,
took pictures for them as requested by jx,
SORRY IF I TOOK BLAH PICTURES,
totally have no experience on that.

went to find teachers, talk talk chat chat.
went for lunch with CO ppl!
sit sit talk talk eat eat.
okay then sms-ed weirong to ask him for directions to go to jx's house.
cos i cant rmb what!
okay, so i had to take 99 from the bus stop nearest to CU.

i waited.
and waited.
and waited some more.
30 minutes or more passed? i think. definitely more than 30 mins.
was damn irritated by it lor!?
okay, IT FINALLY CAME. it came in bunches.
like
FOUR?! or three. i will explain the "three" later.
i saw the first bus was full, so i went to the second 99 i saw.
I SWEAR IT WAS A 99 LOR!?
okay i took it, sat on it, mrs tai came up the bus not long later, and no i didnt talk to her nor did she see me.
i continued to sit, and sit, and sit somemore.
I SAW NO "WEST GROVE PRIMARY SCHOOL"
which i was supposed to alight after.
so i kept on sitting in the bus.
asked weirong whether it shld take that long for the bus trip, and he said yes, okay so i sit and wait.
*i passed by jurong sec sch, saw ppl from basketball practicing.
i was pity-ing those ppl who had to sit 99 for THAT long lor.
the bus went into the ulu ulu areas!?
i remember seeing the gate to JURONG ISLAND!
even at that time, i thought it was just part of the super long journey.
ok so i wait and wait.
THE BUS TOOK A TURN BACK.
it went back the exact same place that it came by.
*i passed by jurong sec sch, again, AND THOSE PEOPLE FROM BASKETBALL WERE FINISHED WITH THEIR PRACTICE.
yes i was on that bus for THAT long.
my ass hurts like crap pls.
okay, so i thought, "okay i shall endure, THE PLACE WILL ARRIVE SOON"
at a junction, the bus driver came out of her seat, went to the side of the bus where they put the sign board for the bus number, opened it, TOOK OUT A SIGN WHICH SAYS 98.
I WAS LIKE OMFG?!
okay maybe that was just a tempo 99/98 bus, and i continued to sit.
by this time, the bus was E.M.P.T.Y.
okay so it went back the same route, exactly.
I WENT BACK TO FUHUA LOR!??!??!?!?!?!
i totally wasted my time!? like more than 1 hour.
really felt that something was wrong, so i went down the bus and called ppl to ask.
in the end i just took a cab down.
OMG DUMB OR WHAT.
and so it explains, i took a 98 which i saw as 99.
WHY DID I!? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
totally blind can.

okay end of time wasting and blah bus trip talk.

went up to jx's house,
mahjong-ed, went home.
and i was forever asking the same qn,
what will you be doing when you go home,
and the answer from ppl will always be
"dont know"
"slack lor"
"go home then decide"
"open the door" -.-

okay end of long post.

test test test

2009-01-22T13:38:00.002+08:00

What's Your Best Quality? Your Result: Loving Your best quality is loving! People like you because of your loving nature. You are a nice person that cares about others. Your loving nature makes you a good friend.
Out-Going
Personality
Sense of Humor
Intelligence
Ambitious
What's Your Best Quality? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

HM, loving yay.

what type of person will you become Your Result: happy person congradulations!!!!!! you ranked highest a person can get, your succsesful and you have a wonderful family your future is very bright in deed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you are succsesful
a very nice person
hobo
a grumpy lonly person
what type of person will you become Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

happy person!

the second ache

2009-01-22T12:37:00.003+08:00

okay so here's the post about yesterday!
went to find weirong in the morning at eleven yesterday, amazingly reached on time, okay maybe a little late.
slacked around for few tens of minutes before we went on out "little" cycling trip.
his dad drew out the map to the HOTSPRINGS that was found in yishun. sounds amazing right! dont get tricked!!!

anyway, left his house , cycled to khatib, then to yishun, stopped at northpoint to have lunch.
realised that KFC was really near to closing down soon alr, its closing down everywhere la!?
left with mac and LJS for our choices.
chose mac at first through randomisation, but NO we didnt eat it afterall, went to LJS.
almost everyone there was alone? as in eating alone. people there just dont like to socialise or something.
okay, then continued along our trip to the "hotsprings". ALMOST got lost.
reached the super ulu and weird place, the hotsprings as they call it.
OMFG I FELT SUPER CHEATED LOR!?
it was like just some taps that gave out HOT UNDERGROUND WATER.
and there were people who actually bathed there. old people that is.
cycled all the way back to his house, somehow the trip back felt a lot shorter than going there.
reached his house at 2+? cant remember.

rested. plan was to go cycling at 230, but only went on 245 due to slacking.
OH THE HELL BEGAN.
at first it was still okay, the cycle to mandai road that is, other than those super LONG uphill slopes.
stopped a while at some nice reservoir area, slacked there, didnt want to move at all luh.
dumb van there wasting fuel and polluting the sound.
we changed bikes, hated the handle of my bike, hurts like crap.
continued cycling along those ulu roads
cycled into a restricted area or something!?!?!
there was this "RESTRICTED AREA. NO ENTRY. KEEP GATE CLOSED AT ALL TIMES"
shocked when he actually brought me inside there!?
cycled a short distance, reached another gate, IT WAS LOCKED LOR.
okay so i thought, "oh, we're going to turn back"
HE BROUGHT ME AROUND THE GATE?!
amazing.
reached the SAF shooting ground or something like that. they were shooting.
what if their hands slipped and shot outside and hit us. okay not likely.
cycled along winding roads, uphill.
reached ANOTHER LOCKED GATE. somehow i knew this time i knew he was going to find someway through. he did.
it looked like someone dug a road through the side of the gate la?
there was even a huge boulder there to block people from going through that, but NOOOO, people found a way through it. YAY.
cycled and cycled, the route became rockier and hole-ier and jungle-ier and ulu-ier. hmm.
there were hell lots of down slopes. STEEP ones. not good for later on going back route. at all.
cycled through the jungle routes, got super tired, couldnt even manage to go up slope at somepoint alr. went down and pushed the bike.
then we reached the dirt track that he mentioned.
OMG CIVILISATION.
there were people there! YAY! at least we weren't alone
at that point we were alr rationing our water supply, seriously getting low.
rested there for quite a long time. was 4pm according to him.
and he still said we shld be able to reach his house by 530.
IF we cycled all the way.
NOT POSSIBLE!? LOL
he went off a while to see the route if we continued on cycling.
sat there and chatted with the old guy. hes damn good la, so old alr still doing those stunts.
okay weirong came back, continued to rest, decided to cycle the track that we took to come here. or go there. whichever is more appropriate.
oh ya, we changed bikes here again.
so same routine, cycle on flat and down slopes.
we reached a junction. there were MONKEYS on one of the routes to the left.
we stared at them, they stared at us.
THEY STARTED DOING IT IN FRONT OF US.
IT. THE S WORD. OR F IF YOU WANT.
and the sound that they make are WEIRD, seriously.
we were alr so damn tired, and they had to make us laugh like hell???
TRIED to cycle up slope, but came down and pushed most of the way.
was mostly downslope from here anyway, so all the bumping + bad handle, hmm.
and we found the highway again!!
rested here, drank SOME water, one mouthful, like always.
his dad called, was shocked at how SLOW we were -.-
decided to come down and fetch us back.
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
but thinking of it now, cycling back wouldnt have been that bad either.
suddenly i had the energy to cycle again!? LOL.
it was alr 530 by then.
so we cycled back to the first gate, was quite downhill-y. so yeaah, goooooood.
went pass those hell gates again, found main roads and waited there.
his dad came, went up the van, rested.
oh and his dad brought this 1.5L of iced water. heaven i tell you.
sat behind alone with the bikes.
and we noticed how long the route back was in a MOTORISED VEHICLE.
we would reach his house at like, SEVEN if we cycled la!?

reached his house, prepared to go swimming, totally nice time to go swimming pls.
went into the pool with the three brothers.
swam, slack, play.
went back to his house to have dinner.
cant remember the last time i had home cooked dinner, very nice.
even though the rice was twice as much as i usually eat at home,
i finished it? probably due to the homecooked food part.
finished dinner, ate fruits.
and i ate a mandarin orange that didnt have seeds at all! such an amazing discovery!
went to his room, slacked, psp-ed.
laughed at useless stuff in the psp. lol?
his brothers are such poor things, banned from games for one month. shuen had been banned for an even longer time i think? totally sadded.
took off at 850 i think, legs were killing me.

took 265 back to yck, MISSED THE STOP.
walked such a long way to the mrt. even had this feeling of wanting to take cab.
stood all the way back until woodlands, then sat, tried to sleep, aches kept waking me up.
reached home.
switched on the computer instinctively?! weird me.
posted that short post, chatted a little, couldnt take it.
went to sleep without even bathing or changing out of my clothes.
slept a full 12 hours.
and here i am now, at home, slacking again.

and yeah, it was a good day yesterday, even with all the tiredness.
i think he had a good time too? hope so. lol.
AND, we didnt take any pictures at all?!
other than that pic at the reservoir, and some at the weird closed off area in the middle of no where, there was this tortoise there living in the dirty and mossy water, poor thing.

anyway, CONGRATS if you actually read through this long and word-only post.
it was meant for memories sake.

aches

2009-01-21T22:18:00.001+08:00

devastatingly tired today.
so many activities linked together.
too tired to type more.
shall post tmr.

trickery

2009-01-21T00:24:00.005+08:00

HAHAHAHHAA.OMG JUST READ ON.

my side of the conversation:

[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
hi
aaron says:
你好
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
i took the quiz in ur blog, it is like?!
aaron says:
请问您是？？
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
LOL?
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
卓文萱<----------------------------------------------!?!??!?!!??!
aaron says:
我是证威的妈妈
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
oh
aaron says:
等一下，我叫他回来
aaron says:
他睡着了，明天我叫他在回话给你。
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
ok
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
bu yong jin

the process in the middle:

TAKAGI FUJIMARU!!! says:
i lie ok?
aaron says:
HHHA?
aaron says:
okay

THEN, he went to confirm with cheryl:

[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
hey
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
are u talking to aaron now
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
this is so omg
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
hi
aaron says:
你好
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
i took the quiz in ur blog, it is like?!
aaron says:
请问您是？？
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
LOL?
卓文萱
aaron says:
我是证威的妈妈
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
oh
TAKAGI FUJIMARU!!! says:
HAHAAHA
TAKAGI FUJIMARU!!! says:
ya his mom using
TAKAGI FUJIMARU!!! says:
U
TAKAGI FUJIMARU!!! says:
HAHAH WAT ZUO WEN XUAN
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
LOL
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
i didn't know
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
i thought it was him la
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
cos he always ni hao sometimes
[Noobie] C= Genie 卓文萱 says:
i totally shocked

LOL, LAUGHED TILL I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE.

toys

2009-01-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

TOY FOOOOOOOOOOD.
weird video but fun.

(non) fiction

2009-01-20T12:47:00.003+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Commitment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

it has an ugly font yes it does.
bored i am, yes i am.

hymn

2009-01-20T10:33:00.003+08:00

come to think of it right,
I THINK A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE KNOW MY PASSWORD?!?!
i've been using this same password for all my accounts since like, PRIMARY 4!?
im so hack-able now la.
this feeling is like, VULNERABLE.
what a word to use man.
but who cares la, im too lazy to change it, there are like dozenS of accounts i have to change the password for like that if i do actually go and change it.
HACK THEN HACK LORRRR.

talking about hacking,
EVERYONE IS HACKING FACEBOOK NOW?!
its like some open secret now,
everyone is so rich,
everyone has so many items,
i have FOUR pianos?!
pianos are supposed to be rare by the way.
dont even feel like going into facebook now, not to mention pet society.
everytime i go into facebook,
i WILL see something that piss me off one lor?!
what someone said, what someone did, why the thing cant load, why cant i beat that highscore.
(HOW THE HECK DOES WEIRONG AND DESMOND GET SO FREAKING HIGH IN GEO CHALLENGE?!?!?!)
never mind, my word challenge still the best.
wooooooo.

i've come to realise,
my blog has SO LITTLE PICTURES!
so dull and uncolourful.
shall make sure no one actually reads finish every single word.
okay maybe there are bored people like me who actually would read every single word.

my sister my sister my sister,
i dreamt that i was damn close with her yesterday?
like talking about everything and stuff,
hmmmm,
will it come true?
hope/dont hope.
ANYWAY, I HOPE SHE CAN GO AND SAVE ALL THOSE PHOTOS AND VIDEOS IN THE CAMERA.
the last time i used the camera, i could take less than 50 photos la!?
shes just too lazy to even save it inside her laptop.
WHY AH.

busy busy week.
today was sort of cancelled,
tomorrow will be out whole day i guess,
thursday would be going out again,
FRIDAY IS FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
saturday will be going out for erhu lesson, at such an irritating time, 4pm!? not early not late, how to plan to go out la,
sunday, IM GOING BACK TO MALAYSIA.
and i will be coming back on the night of 31st.
which leaves ONE DAY for me to prepare everything for school reopen the next day. damn!
anyway, the first whole month is almost slack period?
only until 24th does the normal timetable start.
days end at 5pm everyday?

and my mum isnt really keen on me staying at my aunt's house, i know why she doesnt anyway, who wants their son to not stay with other people right?
but i want to stay there for convenience sake, i want to reach "home" early, and i dont want to wake up at the unholy hour of 5am.
and im talking like i'll definitely go into aj like that.
yeayea.

ponder

2009-01-16T15:03:00.001+08:00

look at my blog address.
may it happen again.
hm, it sort of did.
why am i not happy?

i dont like this!

out of breath

2009-01-14T16:23:00.004+08:00

Yanjie says:
lala is like big
Yanjie says:
hahahahha
aaron says:
BIG!?
Yanjie says:
Dontknow la. LOL
aaron says:
dipsy is tanned
Yanjie says:
i like poe's voice i think.
Yanjie says:
cant rmb
Yanjie says:
last time.
aaron says:
my sister liked lala
Yanjie says:
twinkle winky is ugly!
Yanjie says:
yeah my sister like lala too
aaron says:
YNJIE!!
aaron says:
OMG
aaron says:
TWINKLE WINKY?!?!?!
Yanjie says:
LOL
Yanjie says:
Not meh?!?!
Yanjie says:
HAHAHHA
aaron says:
TINKY WINKY.
Yanjie says:
LOLLOOLLOL
Yanjie says:
OH

almost died la!?

fullstop

2009-01-14T12:37:00.001+08:00

the below line is true.
the above line is false.

contrast

2009-01-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

again, im bored at home.

thought through about the JAE stuff.

talked to some ppl about it, roughly have an idea of what i'll be putting it down as already.

i dont know what to expect now?

the posting results will be out on the 30th right?

I WILL BE FREAKING OVERSEAS LA.

i dont think i'll be getting roaming, so i wont be able to get to know my results.

oh, maybe i shall put the handphone number as my mum's or dad's.

or maybe one of you reading this now, then i'll call you from msia.

ah i dont know.

i want to go to the same school with some, but i dont want to go to the same school with some,

DONT think about which one you are? please and thankyou!

im bored at home and want to go out! but then i feel so lazy and dont-want-to-move-about.

wonder what i shld do.

okay byebyebyebyebye.

WTH

2009-01-11T01:07:00.002+08:00

is it me or is my pet
WEIRD!?!?!??!
ITS EYES ARE LIKE WRONG SIDE?
left-right.
and it can look left and right at the same time!
MAGICAL.
just like the hat.

again?!

2009-01-11T00:37:00.003+08:00

i feel like doing another BORED post.
but it would be like TOTALLY MEANINGLESS PLS.

was stuck in facebook the whole day!?
morning, spammed des with presents and messages together with weirong. most presents being BOOTS. and everything else we used to get our trophies.
anyway, pissed him off, really sorry for that. but we're okay now! :D
afternoon, still stuck in facebook with weirong popping in online intermittently.
revamped my whole pet house?!
see how bored i am here?
night, finished my house revamp.
finally bear to close PS.

went to melvin's blog, heard cassis.
trying to sing it now?
see what boredom does to me -.-
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAHHHH.

will anyone even read that boring post. hmm.

ni hao ma?

2009-01-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

result of boredom??

this.
posting right after i posted just a few minutes ago.
okay lets do something bored.
okay fine, let ME do something boring.

-copied from dullestblog-

my eyes are itchy, so i raised my hand to my eye.
i rubbed my eye, thereby relieving myself of the itch.

i heard something on the tv, i turned my head back.
i looked at the tv but realised it was nothing interesting.
so i turned my head back, returning to what i was doing.

AHHHHH
OHHHHH
BAHHHH
GAHHHHH.

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oh look!

my pet rolled!
notice its position changed from the picture in the last post.